Wow, it has been a long time since I last posted an entry here, well anywhere really. A lot of things have changed since I last wrote anything, blog post or story for that matter. I have moved out of my house and now live on my own for the first time every really. Always had roommates and such, so this is a big move, especially at 42. OMG, I’m going to 42 at the end of the month. Where has my life gone?
I am working for a friend from high school and I actually enjoy it quite a bit. I’m basically a jack of all trades, but mostly work on computers and systems and such. I have been able to do some design work lately as well, which I really enjoy and miss doing. The biggest thing that I miss though is writing. I haven’t written anything for long long time, in a galaxy not so far from here actually. It is my own fault really, and with all the changes going on and the re-evaluating of my life that I have have come to realize that I do miss it. I have been making a tremendous amount of changes, which I will detail in later posts, and I need to keep that up.
I’m almost 42, and what is my legacy? I know, I have two lovely children, and they both are incredible, but I need to make an impact with my life. I feel like I have been just watching my life go by, and have done nothing that I can proudly hang my hat on and say “I did that!” I feel like I haven’t accomplished anything, and worse that I am letting my fellow man and my kids down. I want them to be able to say, “That’s my dad!” and not feel ashamed. I know big revelations, but I said I’ve been making changes.
I am going to start by posting more here. I need to write every day and writing a blog post is a good place to start. eventually I’ll get back to writing all the stories in my head, believe me they need to get out soon or I’ll explode (not literally though). So starting today, January 3rd, 2011, I’m going to write every day. You can hold me to that too. well I’m off and running now, just got to keep my feet and not stumble. This is going to be a habit and give me a voice to tell the world all about what I am dealing with and going through.
Here is to the new year! Plenty of good things will be coming down the road.
Music that made me think: You Don’t Know How It Feels from the album “Wildflowers” by Tom Petty
