Empty Spaces from the album “The Wall” by Pink Floyd
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Hello all, been a while since I posted. Things have been crazy at home and at work and some of it was completely out of control nuts, but that is a story for another day. Today we discuss Vampires and horror stories and NaNoWriMo.
First I have decided to write a horror type story for NaNoWriMo this year. I leaning toward a mystery that involves the supernatural and of course vampires. It will revolve around a news report who is reporting on the crimes as they take place and starts to realize that there is more going on than just a simple bunch of murders/crimes. It will be a departure from my usual writing and I’m really looking forward to it. I need to have an good overview of what is going on, and I’ll be hammering out those details in the next few days.
I’m hoping to get back into the blogging a bit more and I want to keep a detailed journal of how I am doing and the problems and issues I find myself up against during NaNoWriMo this year, and possibly with some audio posts mixed in so don’t forget to check out Thoughts of a Simple Man for those.
Comfortably Numb from the album “The Wall” by Pink Floyd
Thick As a Brick (Part 1) from the album “Thick As a Brick” by Jethro Tull
Just wanted to give you all a quick update on me. Been working on my webcomic and devoting a lot of time over there. You can check it out at Thoughts of a Simple Man… Besides that just family vacation stuff and my new obsession Age of Conan have been occupying the rest of my time. Just don’t get mad, I haven’t forgot my blog, or my writing. I will be back in the swing of things once I get the comic going. So I’m alive and been working on a lot of stuff so hopefully you will all stick it out with me, I appreciate you all, I really do.
How Did I Google This? from the album “The Song Of The Day – January” by Beatnik Turtle
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Besides listening to America recently, as referenced in the title, I have been working hard on reorganizing my time and prioritizing what is most important to me. I have been trying to cut out more time for friends, and in doing so we have a weekly time set up to get together and paint minis and model stuff for our game. We are also trying to get a monthly time to game.
I have also been trying to carve out time to write, time for myself. I have tried to write everyday in the past and failed. With that failure came defeat, at least in my mind, and caused me to stop trying. I know that I need to keep a solid mindset if I’m going to make it a habit but I also realize that I need to set myself up to succeed. With that in mind, I am setting up an hour to write, the days a week. Monday, Tuesday and Saturday will be the days, as those are the ones I have the easiest time setting up some alone time for me. So starting this Saturday, I plan on writing for at least an hour, most likely someplace away from the family, even if I have to just go sit in my car at the local park. I want to write, it helps free my mind and my soul. It helps me stay stable in my life and gives me a creative outlet to express my inner beast.
This is just the start of my soul searching and the changes I plan on making in my life. We will see what that will bring but I’m hoping that it will give me something that I can look back on a say. “You know what? You made something of your life.” The day I can say that will be the day that I feel truly happy.
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Why do I put myself through all the pain? Why does it seem I am destined to be alone, misunderstood or just plain loathed. I know that my family loves me, but I feel that the root is much deeper and has everything to do with myself and not those around me. I set all these goals, and have such great plans for thins I want to do. When push comes to shove, I fold. I never finish what I start. That is the core problem with myself and I have come to realize that. I need to change this, I know I do, but I think I fear to have success and that is why I don’t finish. I am afraid to be worthy, praised as being good at anything. I believe that I am afraid to admit that I have ability or talent. That I am anything but a miserable, loathsome creature.
I think my issues started with my childhood, having to fend for myself all the time and not getting the praise that I child should get from their parents when they do something well. I never had that. In fact I resented when my brother and sister got it, even though I preformed better in school then they did. I needed to recognize my fear so I can move beyond it. I need to finish what I start. I have to not let my own self loathing and fear force me not finish my projects. I now know what I need to change about myself. I have to make these changes if I’m to grow and move beyond the past.
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Words:
- Pirate Story: 918
Other details:
- Coffee: Only one (maybe two) to get through.
- Music: Pirates of the Caribbean soundtrack
- Time Writing: 47 minutes
- Outside Influences: Captain Jack Sparrow: though in a very constructive way, so far.
- Treat: 2 hours of Pirates of the Caribbean Online, Got me in the mood more than usual.
- Roadblocks: My son’s (and my) Sensei kept interrupting me. I wrote while my son was in karate class.
Today I get to go to a play of Richard the Third. I’m looking forward to it quite a bit. Tonight I plan on writing some more and, hopefully, staying away from the game. I’ve been staying up late playing and I need to take my life back.
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- New WIP: 1193
Other details:
- Coffee: Way to much (see below)
- Music:Ziggy Stardust, David Bowie. I listened to a lot of music but this one stuck out.
- Time Writing: 1 hour 30 minutes(or there abouts, I’ll time it next time)
- Outside Influences: So far just my strange and ample imagination.
- Treat: 30 minutes of Pirates of the Caribbean Online
- Roadblocks: A migraine that would beat the band, all day all night in my skull. That would explain the level of coffee intake, which may or may not have helped.
In other news my work really sucked today, but what else is new. Busy night though cleaning up and taking my son to karate, which actually gave me 50 minutes of writing time, minus the conversation with the other parents. This is a cool set up and if it works for Mur it will be more than adequate for me.
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So here I am, already four days into the new year and what am I doing? The same thing I always do, I’m existing. I’ve been existing for so long, I really think it is all I know how to do. I need to make a change. I need to find a way of improving my situation, and my life. I wake every day and I just go through the motions. I do what I need to do and I don’t plan for the next day until it begins. I need to have a plan and I need to change the way I interact with life.
My first resolution (God I hate that word but it fits here) is to write more. I’ve tried in the past with daily goals and soon, due to the unstable nature of my household, I find that I miss a few days and then I fall out of the practice. This year I am going to try something new. I am setting weekly goals, 3500 words each week. By doing this if I get to write one day and not another I still have time to catch up on the word count and if I fall short by a few I can still catch up during the next week. I’m hopeful that this will keep me writing all year, even if it isn’t every day. If I can do it, I’ll write enough for 2 novels this year.
On a more personal front, I want to try and enjoy my life more. I want to spend more time as a family, doing family things. I tired of the every man for himself attitude that has pervaded our home. We all come home and go and do our separate things. We barely know that there are others in the house. We almost ignore each other. I want to try and change this attitude. I want to have family games, that we are all involved in. I want to be a family. I need to be more expressive of that feeling, and all others for that matter. It just bugs the hell out of me when one of us goes to do something and the other assumes that we are gone for the night and goes looking for something else to do. It just needs to stop. I’ve only got a few ideas and hopefully they will work. In the long run I want us to be a stronger family unit.
Well, thats it. That is what I have for the New Year. Hopefully 2008 will be everything that I believe it can be. I can hope can’t I.
Oh and a couple more things. I want to stay in more contact with my friends, both online and off. I would also like to go to Balticon this year and meet some of the great minds that infest my online community, that would help make it a perfect year. Just need to figure out the money.