Old Ghosts

That is exactly what I have been feeling like lately, an old ghost. I am definitely feeling my age, all 39 years of it. My body is breaking down, my mind is not in the best of sorts and emotionally I’m a total mess. I was recently told by my doctor that my sugers (those of you who don’t know I’m a diabetic) are way out of control. I suspected as much. She put me on a new medicine which so far has been making me feel like crap. Physically I’m going down hill. Instead of losing weight, I’ve gained and my exercise routine is none existent. I have been feeling down in the dumps and completely lost.

I decided for myself he other day that I need to do something about it. I can’t sit back and allow my life to pass me by. I have two small children who need their father, wether they show it or not. I have a life, at least I’m living one. I want to make something of it. I’m sick and tired of not finishing what I start. I need to be able to finish. I need to make my life better, emotionally and physically. I need to get in a routine for exercise, and lose the weight. I need to get off my butt and reclaim my life, if for no one else then for myself. If I don’t, I won’t be an old ghost. I’ll be a young one.

Old Ghosts from the album “Stormwatch” by Jethro Tull

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