It Ends Tonight

Ok I admit it, It Ends Tonight. My fear becomes reality tomorrow as I board a plane and fly to Baltimore. Balticon 42 starts tomorrow. My first Con ever. My first time meeting all the awesome Tribe members who have been so good to me over the past months. I’m scared, scared to death that I’ll do something to make a fool of myself. Believe me I have a easy time doing this. I get flustered when I meet people I respect and admire and there are so many of the Tribe that I respect and admire. Some of their accomplishments I could only dream of. The fact that they can do so much amazes me to no end. I have a hard time just doing what it takes to just live, that it shocks me that they can do so much and still have a great life. I do truly admire them.

Now I just have to face it and go forward. I hope that I can just be myself when I meet the Tribe. I hope that the fear doesn’t take hold. If it does, well I’ll just have to deal, with turning into a total fanboy. I have put myself at the mercy of my friend (maebreakall on twitter) who has promised to show me the ropes of Balticon, and introduce me to my idols. I can not thank her enough, because I would have no idea what to do. I am hoping to have a great time this weekend, barring any “fanboy” behavior. I’m sure there will be a bit of that, but I’m also sure that I will meet and befriend some really incredible people this weekend.

I’m also looking forward to some alone time for me, try and get my head in the right place so when I come back I can start new and fresh.

It Ends Tonight from the album “Move Along” by The All-American Rejects

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