Feb

16

Meaningful…..Maybe.

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DepressionBeen a while since I did a meaningful post, a long, long while. I have been dealing with a lot of personal crap lately, mostly medical, but I also haven’t been the best husband and father in the past 5 weeks. I haven’t coped well at all with my medical issues, or the fact that I’ve had to run the show at work while my boss has been out. I have had it pretty good, the fact that my boss has been out has made it easier, but the stress of having it all on my shoulders these past few weeks has been a bit unbearable. Not only have I had to do all of my normal work but I have also had to do his, and make all of his phone calls, etc, etc. I have unfortunately let this stress boil over into my home life on the weekends. I realize that I shouldn’t be allowing this to happen, but I haven’t been able to stop it. By the time the weekend rolls around I have been ready to explode, and then I head home to spend the only quality time I have with my family. I am hoping that the new medication helps. I am also looking forward to some time off from work. I have gotten a note to take a medical leave of absence and I really think that I need it. I will be able to get a lot of the stress off of my shoulders and give me some time to clear my head and get my life back together. I hope that I’ll be able to write and get by this block that I have right now.

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Feb

14

My Thoughts gets a facelift.

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Thoughts of a Simple Man....
Just wanted to post that I’ve changed up the design of Thoughts of a Simple Man….. Please, I asking everyone on the F-list to stop by and take a look and let me know what you think, I would appreciate any feedback you could give.

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Feb

14

damn…..

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Testriffic IQ test

And I was sleepy when I took it, I should try again when I’m more awake.

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Feb

8

OMG these are good.

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I love these fake Star Wars screen tests, they are so funny.

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Feb

1

A swing and a miss!

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Oy Vey You know how life just likes to throw you a curve ball when you least expect it. I had one thrown at me yesterday and boy did I swing and miss. It is now almost a whole day later and I’m still in a bit of shock. Though looking back on my life it does make a hell of a lot of sense, even if I don’t really believe it. I went to the doctor yesterday and after an hour and half at the appointment it turns out that I suffer from MDD, major depressive disorder. It also turns out that I have probably suffered from it since I was a child. Once she explained the symptoms of it, and I sat there saying, yeah I do that, yeah that happens all the time, it really started to hit me. I need help, and a lot of it seems. It isn’t something that can be cured with willpower, god knows if it was I would have been cured a long time ago. I need meds, it is just like my diabetes, it isn’t something that will just go away if I ignore it. I need a lot of counseling and cognitive therapy, whatever that means. I just look back on my life and wonder how much I would have enjoyed better if I had been diagnosed earlier. So now I sit and wonder what else in my life that this condition, which is genetic, or so I’m told, and my father probably suffers from too, has affected. I’ll never know really, I still think that the way I feel is normal and everyone feels this way, even though I’ve been told different. I just have to get better, for the sake of my family and for myself.

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