I know I haven’t been around for a while but I wanted to let you all know I am still here. Work has been stressful and my relationships have been confusing to say the least. I have been escaping into world of warcraft which I am sure doesn’t help and quite frankly my health just sucks. I did get something today which brightened my day and put a much needed smile on my face.
It was the picture that my daughter made while at daycare. I asked her teacher and she said that Emma wanted to make it for daddy because he has been so sad lately. I can’t say enough how much my little girl means to me and how miserable my life would be if she wasn’t in it everyday. It meant so much to me that I am still a little teary eyed over it. She is my hero, as much as I appear to be hers. I love you my little girl, so much.
My Hero from the album “The Colour and the Shape” by Foo Fighters
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It would seem that due to my sickness over the weekend I will not be doing NaNoWriMo this year. I hope to try and do some writing and to go to a few of the write ins and write more than I have been in a long time. I just think with all the stuff going on in my life and my general health issues that I can’t pace myself to actively complete NaNoWriMo this year. I’m sorry to all my friends if I am letting you down, I know that I am letting myself down. There is always next year.
Empty Spaces from the album “The Wall” by Pink Floyd
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Last night was our pumpkin carving night, and this year the kids both wanted Jack Skellington from The Nightmare Before Christmas, and me being a huge fan just couldn’t say no. So here it is, our frightful Pumpkin King in all his glory. Enjoy.
This is Halloween from the album “The Nightmare Before Christmas” by Danny Elfman
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I know what you dirty bastards were thinking. The C-Word in this post is Confused. Thats what I am right now. I am confused about a great many things actually. This has a lot to do with the fact that I stopped taking my depression meds about 10 days ago. I now know what a junky feels like when he has withdrawal symptoms. I am not the same person I was just a week ago, and I really don’t like it at all. I’m anxious, disoriented and find it hard to deal with more than one thing at a time. The last one is the one that bothers me the most, I’m used to doing ten things at a time and getting a lot done. Right now, I’m lucky to get through this post without totally forgetting where I am and what I’m talking about.
The worst part is that I’m not sure if it is the drugs or the fact that my wife had betrayed me yet again that is bothering me more. I found out that she is still talking to some guy on Second Life, that has caused us issues in the past. I have asked that she stop talking and hanging out with this guy, who she tells me is just some dude online, she doesn’t know his name and doesn’t care for him other than as just a friend. She has basically chosen to be his friend and to talk and hang with him rather than respect my wishes. It makes me confused as she says one thing and does another. She says I mean the world to her but yet she still continues a relationship which will put all of that in jeopardy. It is obvious that this guy means more to her than she is telling me. I hope that is the case because the alternative is that I mean less to her than she says. Either way, she isn’t telling me the truth.
So here I sit confused and alone with my thoughts. Which at the moment is not an entirely good place to be. I fear that the damage to my marriage is not repairable. I know that I am far from an innocent here, but if she asked me to stop talking to a friend to save our marriage I would. I just fear that she has been hurt by me so many times that she will never be able to trust that I have changed. I’m not the man that hurt her in the past, this loss of medication has showed me that I have made a lot of progress in that department. Like everything, I am far finished, and I probably never will be. I shouldn’t ever stop trying to make myself better, and improve the person that I am. I am just confused at the moment. Confused and afraid that the old baggage and “chains that I forged in life” have weighed down my marriage and my relationship with my wife to the point where it can’t move forward and improve. the trust is gone on both sides and that is the saddest part of all.
I’m just confused and scared. I fear for my kids, and the damage I am doing to them. I am confused and lost and don’t know what to do to fix it. I hate not knowing how to fix it.
The C-Word from the album “The Song Of The Day - May” by Beatnik Turtle
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Hello all, been a while since I posted. Things have been crazy at home and at work and some of it was completely out of control nuts, but that is a story for another day. Today we discuss Vampires and horror stories and NaNoWriMo.
First I have decided to write a horror type story for NaNoWriMo this year. I leaning toward a mystery that involves the supernatural and of course vampires. It will revolve around a news report who is reporting on the crimes as they take place and starts to realize that there is more going on than just a simple bunch of murders/crimes. It will be a departure from my usual writing and I’m really looking forward to it. I need to have an good overview of what is going on, and I’ll be hammering out those details in the next few days.
I’m hoping to get back into the blogging a bit more and I want to keep a detailed journal of how I am doing and the problems and issues I find myself up against during NaNoWriMo this year, and possibly with some audio posts mixed in so don’t forget to check out Thoughts of a Simple Man for those.
Comfortably Numb from the album “The Wall” by Pink Floyd
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Just a post to let you all know that I have updated My Notes with a new theme and also to say that by popular demand I am going to do the vampire story for NaNoWriMo.
Thick As a Brick (Part 1) from the album “Thick As a Brick” by Jethro Tull
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Its a lonely life I live and I live this life to go
And if I leave you with one thing its just that I want
You to know
Ill still be loving you tonight.
I left flowers on your table, left the lock on your door.
Staked a claim in your heartlands, put grain in your store.
Ill still be loving you tonight.
Got fingers on the button of that telephone dial.
Call in and move your mountains, fill your spaces while
Im still loving you tonight.
You want to know how I can leave you?
How can I move along this way?
Too much of a good thing can make you crazy
And its a good thing that happened to me today.
Ill still be loving you tonight.
Its a lonely life I live and I live this life to go
And if I leave you with one thing its just that I want
You to know
Ill still be loving you tonight.
Ok this is just how I have been feeling. I know you are all probably really sick to death of hearing about my miserable life. I just need to work on it and music helps me, it really does. I also have to say that my online friends and the ones that I have met only a few times (you all know who you are), have been the most supportive and caring people to me. I appreciate every last bit of support and love. It has help more than I can ever say. I’m having a hard time but I’m working on my life and I am trying to improve it and make up for a lot of mistakes that I have made. Your support has meant so much and I can never thank you all enough.
Still Loving You Tonight from the album “Catfish Rising” by Jethro Tull
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